Hello, blog followers!! So this one has a big announcement in it. One that will be news to most of y’all! 🙂
This semester I’ve gotten a glimpse of what life would be like if I kept with my plan of WWP by day, wedding planner by night, and, let me tell you, I have never been so stressed out, high strung, and all around scatterbrained in my life. I didn’t get a chance to see friends much at all and only really got to sleep and get caught up on life if I skipped class (counterproductive, I know!). Don’t get me wrong! I wouldn’t go back and change it if I could! I needed to experience it! And I really did have fun!
However, I’ve pretty much hated all of my classes. I chalked it up to wanting to be done with school, but then I really got thinking about it. Every time enrollment comes around I always end up questioning my major. And every time I push it aside because I like Hospitality, and everyone says I’d be good at it. I don’t doubt that I would! I would also be a great accountant. Does that mean I want to do it and that it would make me happy? No! And I’ve just been so bored in class. I need a constant challenge, and I’m just not getting that in my classes now.
This time I really thought about it, and here’s what I realized. Hospitality has three main areas – food and beverage, lodging and events. I already know I don’t want to do F&B or lodging. As far as events, I don’t want to do conferences, conventions, exhibitions, meetings, corporate, weddings, or other special events. What does that leave? Non-profits, which wouldn’t be awful (because that’s what you’re looking for when deciding on a career!). However, most non-profit offices are in major cities, and I don’t even kind of want to live in the city! Coming back to KC now stresses me out! Even Manhattan has gotten a bit big! 😛 As if that wasn’t enough to help me decide, part of the curriculum for the Hospitality major is 9 credit hours of Professional electives. They give you a bunch of classes to choose from, about half of which are hospitality classes. The others are management, sociology, psychology, etc. All of the ones I picked are all non-hospitality courses because the hospitality ones didn’t sound interesting to me. That should’ve been my first clue!
I’ve always wanted to do something that’s going to make a difference. When I decided on Hospitality, I kind of pushed that aside. The thing is that’s such a huge part of me, that pushing it aside is going to leave me really unhappy with my career choice. Life is too short to not do something you love! I’m not saying the Hospitality industry isn’t important! Hell, it’s because of it that I have a job and have made some great friends! But that’s not the kind of difference I want to make. I want something deeper than that.
Psychology is something I have always loved! When I originally applied to K-State I applied as a psych major, but changed before I got to orientation because I listened to what everyone else was telling me. Here’s what I’ve decided. Clinical psychology is something that has been in the back of my mind for the last three years.
I’ve been through a lot. If I can use my story to help people that are going through the same thing, why wouldn’t I? I’m finally in a place where I’m confident enough in my recovery to know that I can do this without getting pulled back in, which was what kept me from doing this before. I’m not worried about relapsing, however, I’m also not stupid about it. I know I have to check in with myself honestly every so often to make sure I’m still on track.
So the big news! I have officially changed my major to Psychology with a concentration in clinical with the hopes of becoming a psychologist specializing in addictions when all is said and done!! I met with a psych adviser and it’ll keep me at K-State an extra semester maybe and then off to grad school.
This is not a decision I made lightly! I have God knows how many pros and cons lists to prove it. I know I change my mind a lot, which is why it’s taken me so long to make the switch because I wanted to be sure. I’ve changed so much the last few years that, while every decision I’ve made has been right at the time, I’m not at all the same person I was even six months ago. It’s time for me to really think about where I see myself when I “grow up.” It’s hard to keep up with me, and I get that! I know I’ve sounded excited about my life choices before, but I’ve not felt as confident in one as I do right now! I may have been excited before, but I covered up the uncertainty in the choices. I know this is something I’d be good at and can’t wait to get started!
Other than that, nothing else exciting has really been going on. Work has been really slow, which has been great since I’ve been sick the last couple weeks. It’s finally Thanksgiving break!! I’ve had plenty of time to clean, re-enroll in classes, read, watch Netflix, catch up on some homework and sleep already this break and it’s only Sunday night! (well technically Monday morning….it’s really quite late….whoops!) Plus, Thanksgiving break means only 3 more weeks until the semester is over!!!! If that’s not great news, I’m not sure what is! 🙂
So with all that being said, here goes yet another chapter in my life! Let the fun begin!