Should’ve Penciled It In

I almost don’t even know why I post updates because give it a week, and I’ll change my mind! Just like now. Sooooooooo…..last time I talked about how 1) I got Tucker 2) I was starting to work out again and eat like a healthy human being and 3) I was taking the semester off and probably not finishing school. Well those first two things are still true! I still have Tucker and I’ve cleaned up my diet pretty well! But as for school….

I found out I’m 19 credits away from finishing my Associates at JCCC. I’m going to knock that out this semester and summer, and, when July rolls around and my lease is up, I’m moving down south! I’ve talked about how I want to move to Texas for years now. There is nothing tying me down here. I have Tucker, but he’s kind of stuck with me wherever I go. I have friends that live here with me, but just because I move doesn’t mean we won’t be friends anymore! That’s why God made cell phones 🙂

Before, I talked about how when that guy and I were figuring out what was going on with us, I thought about my life and what I wanted. He was the first person I had ever told my whole plan, and I intend to keep it that way for a little bit anyway. But the point is, I said I wanted to work with Wounded Warrior Project and do events on the side. Nothing I’m doing right now is getting me to that point. I’m working a job I tolerate in a field I don’t love. Life’s too short to not do what I want to be doing and what makes me happy. While I don’t necessarily want to go back to class, the job I want requires at least an Associates, so I can power through 7 more months.

Do I know with 100% certainty this is what I want? No. Am I scared shitless of moving across the country where I know no one? Yes. Absolutely. Have I already cried at the thought of leaving some of my friends? Yes. More than I care to admit. But right now I’m stuck in a rut. The rut isn’t going to go away unless I do something about it.

If there’s anything I’ve learned in the last few years, it’s that comfort comes in the uncomfortable. I was nervous about coming back to K-State because my friend group had completely changed, and I didn’t really have anyone here. But I love it and am now stronger and more independent than ever! I’ve told those that I’m closest to about my plan, but now it’s time for everyone to know!

I’m so excited about what’s to come! I’ve had lengthy conversations about it with my friends, and they’ll kick me out of Manhattan if I change my mind. Unless something super crazy happens, at the end of July, TX will be my new home!


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