Boy has it been awhile since my last post! It’s not that I can say I’ve had nothing going on. It’s been a shit show the last couple months. I just have been too tired to write anything. So what’s new:
Tucker is a rockstar and graduated from puppy class today!! He’s doing soooo well and is going to be a really well trained dog once the puppy dies down a little bit. We’re going to start Adult 1 and 2 classes, too, but he has to be 6 months for that. We’re not quite there! Another couple of weeks. But he is well on his to becoming a therapy dog!!
I’m doing Whole30! Although let’s be honest….it’s been more like Whole26 and even that was questionable. The point is to cut out certain foods and see how your body reacts without them. A detox of sorts. So you can’t have any added sugars, dairy, grains, alcohol, legumes, “junk” food and processed foods. Some might say that this is a bad idea for someone with my history, but I’m going to strongly disagree with that. This time, it kept from a relapse.
The last couple of months have been so emotionally draining. I’ve had multiple doctors appointments with no answer, a job I don’t love with enough drama to give anyone nightmares, the fun task of trying to stay just friends with someone when you’re both still in love with each other, deciding what’s in store for me in the coming months, etc. With Whole30, I haven’t been able to turn to food like I usually would. It’s forced me to find other ways to deal with it. Maybe it’s taking Tucker for a walk, getting a good workout in, having a solid cry, cleaning, whatever it is. The foods I’d normally run to I can’t eat. And honestly, I feel a million times better. I’m not as tired, I have more energy, I don’t feel as gross (because that’s totally a feeling) and I’m much more aware of how foods affect me. I don’t have intense sugar cravings anymore, and, if I do, an apple takes care of it. Will I continue to eat Whole30 approved most of the time? Probably. But that doesn’t mean I won’t have the occasional burger and fries or ice cream.
The most exciting part!! I’m moving to San Antonio in July to join the Police Academy, assuming I pass all the testing beforehand. I’m not really worried about that though. I’m getting my butt back in better shape, the intelligence test shouldn’t be that bad, and then it’s just making sure I’m a trustworthy person that doesn’t have a horrible record. Check and check! Everyone I’ve talked to about this says “well this is kind of out of the blue.” But it really isn’t. I’ve always loved the idea of being a cop – eventually going to the FBI. I just always figured it was like being a brain surgeon – I couldn’t do it. The difference is I legitimately couldn’t be a brain surgeon. I have shaky hands, and I’m horrible at science! I know I have what it takes to be a good cop. I have the drive and intelligence to make it. I want to work in investigations – murders, serial killers, etc. Once I finish Academy, I’ll get my degree from Fort Hays in Criminal Justice. Then there are a couple of really good online Masters of Forensic Psychology programs that I could do if I so choose.
I’m ready to move. I’m stuck in Manhattan right now. It’s a great town, but there’s nothing for me anymore. I’m ready to move and start fresh! I’m making my list of things I need to do before I move and a timeline of when to get them done, and I’m getting super excited!